should i? or should i not?

i want him, but i can't have him. should i talk to him and simply confess, or should i let the time decide what to happen? i think i need him, but i can't be sure he needs me too. should i grab and hold him tightly, or should i let him be and decides things to be happen? i still love him and i already confessed before, but he said things can't be as before. should i force him to accept me back, or should i wait for his heart to open and accept me back, which i know it is simply takes lots of time? should i wait patiently, or should i talk to him and confess again? i simply can't decide what i want and what i don't! perhaps.....